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Making Progress of Sorts

Last night I stayed up way too late organizing the content for my next large writing project (I'm still in denial/havering about Nano).

But the other thing I did was finish one of two shorts I was doing during my time off. That felt pretty good, especially when I realized that it was done, and I liked the ending (even if it was sad). But having something, however small, crossed off my list feels good.

I'm overwhelmed. I wasn't ready to go back to work. My commute makes me miserable. I have a few too many projects on my plate. I want my Mommy, although she left on Monday.

But there's light at the end of the tunnel, and I have decided to cut my hair. That's progress too.

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littlenadia
Oct. 26th, 2005 09:59 pm (UTC)
Wow...you finished two shorts...will we be finding them in the stores soon? Or on the net? Or did I misunderstood?
junglemonkee
Oct. 26th, 2005 10:26 pm (UTC)
Well, the sad fact is that the shorts are written but not yet edited and, since I don't have a badly-paid little bald sidekick I can slap around, I don't have anyone to do the admin work like copying and mailing that is necessary to sell this stuff.

All of which is a long-winded way of saying that I have no idea when it'll be available.
littlenadia
Oct. 27th, 2005 02:53 pm (UTC)
uhhmm...sorry..that was me...^^
alleahna
Oct. 27th, 2005 04:52 pm (UTC)
Congrats on getting two stories done, dude!

With regard to NaNo, are you hovering because of time constraints or because story/idea issues are coming up? Is it the fact of one more commitment among many? Give it some long thought this weekend, dude.

Hang in there and get some chicken lovin'!
junglemonkee
Oct. 27th, 2005 05:13 pm (UTC)
First of all, I'm not "hovering," I'm "havering," which is Scottish for babbling insanely. I'm babbling because I always babble when I"m trying to convince myself of something, in this case to make up my mind about whether I'm in or out.

Honestly, I can make a good case both ways. On the plus side, there is a certain momentum to be gained by doing it with a group, and having that group depend on you (and when I say "depend on," I mean in a "moral support, we're all in this together" sort of way). There are also lots of cool tools like progress bars that are pretty motivating. There is swag and bragging rights and the ability to bitch loudly without seeming like quite so much of a poser.

On the minus side, there is having to wait until November when the truth is that I have the ideas, the impetus and the spare time (actually counted in microseconds right now). There is the necessity of making myself available for social events that rankle me even when I"m wholeheartedly committed. There's the knowledge that when I obligate myself for something, I ride myself mercilessly. I cannot go a single day without writing, lest I harangue myself into depression over my perceived failure. This includes not writing for some very good reasons, like lack of time or desire to do other authorly activities like submitting.

Right now, we're in the infancy of chicken love, which looks like giving a lot without getting a lot in return. "Giving" in this case is building their coop and fencing the run, which has to be done soon as they seem to be growing exponentially. Once that's done, it's off my plate and tons of free time opens up.
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