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Allergic to Work?

I was home a lot of last week with a sick little kid. That's a drag. But I managed to keep my own health pretty much intact.

That is, until I got myself together to come in here this morning. Suddenly my nose is stuffy, my body aches and I have a headache I can't shake. I've noticed that I'm starting to dread coming in to work. Every day, I'm going over in my mind the list of things that I have going on at home (most notably finishing the re-write of my book) that I'm missing out on by coming into a 9-5 job. This is a dangerous attitude, I know. I'm beating myself up for it because it makes me feel as if I'm shortchanging myself and my boss, who's a great guy and deserves the best I can give.

Well, I guess I should probably start acting like I'm actually here.


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Jul. 7th, 2003 10:42 am (UTC)
A couple of months ago, I took a shutdown week, and then, the Thursday after I got back, I took a mental health day. Because going back to work was totally stressing me out, and not because of a bunch of stuff at home I wanted to do-- it was just stressing.

I also had that "how the hell am I going to get everything done" attack a couple of months after I started here, but it went away after a month or two. For me, Nanowrimo really helped, because it proved to me that I could do all that other stuff and work full-time if I really worked hard at making a routine of it.
Jul. 7th, 2003 10:49 am (UTC)
key word: routine. i have had trouble with that and as a result have not been very successful at keeping my writing integrated with my life. not sure if that will get better or worse now that i'm back to working full time. ironically, i'm guessing it will get better because i have to consciously make time. hopefully i can get back in gear and make some real progress before all work hell (merger) breaks loose in october.
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